Lyrics Day 292 – ‘Decision’

Hey everyone,

I think I’ve mentioned it before, but when I hit my target by saving a certain amount of money, I have to decide whether to complete my counselling studies, or travel to China and teach English for a year (at least). To be honest, right now, although it’s the riskier option, I’m leaning towards moving to China for a while. Honestly I’m feeling disappointed in myself recently, for the lack of risks taken in my life. Taking a chance isn’t always a good thing, but for once, I would really love to just jump, and see where I land. It’s still going to take me almost a year to hit my saving target, so let’s see what I decide when I get there.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Decision (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Around a year from now
I’ll make my decision
Once and for all
A path with no diversions

To stay, and study
Or explore a distant land
No-one else to blame
It’s all in my hands

In my mind-set I see
Narrowing tunnel-vision
Doesn’t allow me to view
Situations with optimism

To stay, and study
Or explore a distant land
No-one else to blame
It’s all in my hands
For once in my life
I want to take a big risk
Never looking back
Only reaping the benefits

I’ve felt the lethargy
Too much comfort provides
Takes away your energy
Seeping away from your insides
On more than one occasion
I’ve wanted nothing more
Than gentle protection
But safety has left me sore

To stay, and study
Or explore a distant land
No-one else to blame
It’s all in my hands
For once in my life
I want to take a big risk
Never looking back
Only reaping the benefits

Lyrics Day 291 – ‘Years’

Hey everyone,

sometimes, when I see things changing, I still feel like a child, clinging to anything solid as tornado rages around me. It’s not that I haven’t matured; actually, I’m not sure exactly what the reason is – perhaps it’s just an innate mindset that I have, but I find the concept of change difficult. So, as life goes on around me, I always seem to be busy, but moving forward at a snails pace. Today’s lyrics reflect on those thoughts.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Years (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

When I was younger
Dad said he wondered
Just where the years went
Youth torn asunder

I’m still young
But feel I have no time
Slipping through my fingers
Losing grip of my prime

See photos of my friends
With children to their name
The cycle is repeating
But I’m still the same

I’m still young
But feel I have no time
Slipping through my fingers
Losing grip of my prime
Family members distant
Friends go their separate ways
Wondered how to prevent
This ruthless sea of change

Now we’re isolated
I have more time to think
Look down at my armour
And notice several chinks
It used to shine so brightly
No tarnishing smears
I guess I just lost track
Throughout those passing years

I’m still young
But feel I have no time
Slipping through my fingers
Losing grip of my prime
Family members distant
Friends go their separate ways
Wondered how to prevent
This ruthless sea of change

Lyrics Day 290 – ‘Simon’s Coca-Cola’

Hey everyone,

I remember when my Brother Simon used to stay with us on weekends, and would frequently buy a 2 litre bottle of Coke from the local shop. This probably doesn’t sound like a big thing, but as a kid, it was a special treat for me to have, and I really looked forward to it whenever my Brother would offer me some. As I’ve done in some lyrics in the past, today I reflect on how as a child, something so small gave me a wonderful feeling, but it’s hard to recapture that now.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Simon’s Coca-Cola (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Remember when my brother
would always buy that drink
two litres of red and black
profound now, I begin to think

Back then, as a child
brand names were a treat
so when he gave me a glass
it tasted extra sweet

It’s a sad thought
experiencing less and less
that feeling of wonder
a slide I must address

Back then, as a child
brand names were a treat
so when he gave me a glass
it tasted extra sweet
I feel like I’ve lost it
that sense of appreciation
perhaps it was the atmosphere
that created expectation

It was just last week
bought myself some munchies
now considering the need
and counting the calories
wonder sometimes why
each action can be hard
instead of just enjoying
with next to no regard

Back then, as a child
brand names were a treat
so when he gave me a glass
it tasted extra sweet
I feel like I’ve lost it
that sense of appreciation
perhaps it was the atmosphere
that created expectation

Lyrics Day 289 – ‘Bag at the Station’

Hey everyone,

today I’ve reflected on a memory when I had to use the toilet at the train station, but I didn’t want to take my bag inside. I asked the girl sitting next to me if she could take care of it for me, and when I got back, I thanked her, and started up a conversation, speaking to her online for a few years after that, and meeting her again once in person. It’s weird to look back at it, how in the past I almost seemed fearless, in comparison to the person I am now. These lyrics reflect on those thoughts.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Bag at the Station (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Recall when I left my bag
with a girl at the station
looking back now
surprised at my inclination

Wonder if I’ll ever
do the same thing again
connect with a stranger
turn them into a friend

Spouted off a story
as I did back then
said we’d remember this day
when we became friends

Wonder if I’ll ever
do the same thing again
connect with a stranger
turn them into a friend
now I feel I’m a bother
not sure if I should try
when I don’t love myself
and we’ll only say goodbye

Once in the cinema
she told me her friends
thought on this day
I’d ask for her hand
I was oblivious
and told her not to worry
no wonder she changed
the topic in a hurry

Wonder if I’ll ever
do the same thing again
connect with a stranger
turn them into a friend
now I feel I’m a bother
not sure if I should try
when I don’t love myself
and we’ll only say goodbye

Lyrics Day 288 – ‘Hollow’

Hey everyone,

yesterday evening, a colleague opened up to me about abuse suffered in their childhood. I responded in the way that my studies have taught me to, and also offered my support, but was still left feeling hollow, not only about her suffering but of countless others, too. These thoughts are explored in today’s lyrics.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Hollow (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Colleague spoke yesterday
about memories of abuse
and as I tried to comfort
felt that I was of no use

Despite all my training
and talk of lofty dreams
so many people suffering
tearing at the seams

I listened, and paraphrased
offered my support
but I had no panacea
wished for a healing retort

Despite all my training
and talk of lofty dreams
so many people suffering
tearing at the seams
instead of being inspirational
someone they can follow
right now my inaction
has left me feeling hollow

Ambition without action
barely worth a mention
people can’t be healed
with only good intention
I can’t say I’ve done nothing
but it sometimes feels that way
doesn’t wait in some far off future
change has to start today

Despite all my training
and talk of lofty dreams
so many people suffering
tearing at the seams
instead of being inspirational
someone they can follow
right now my inaction
has left me feeling hollow

Lyrics Day 287 – ‘End’

Hey everyone,

today I’ve been a little more creative, writing about a scenario which has always inspired me – a lone hero taking on an entire army, knowing he will die, but giving his all for honour, and to potentially save his comrades.

Stay safe ~

Sean

End (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Alone on the battlefield
I face a sea of enemies
unsheathe my blade
as they charge towards me

My allies are either dead
or escaping behind me
I’ll provide the barrier
give them time to flee

Thankful for the comfort
that this army provides
built a strong rapport
pray to relive those times

My allies are either dead
or escaping behind me
I’ll provide the barrier
give them time to flee
take one final breath
and look up at the sky
the noblest of ends
if this is where I die

They approach relentlessly
raise my blade to the sky
reflects the natural sunlight
one final shine
reality seems to slow
as I reflect on my life
I’ve made a lot of mistakes
but no, not this time

My allies are either dead
or escaping behind me
I’ll provide the barrier
give them time to flee
take one final breath
and look up at the sky
the noblest of ends
if this is where I die

Lyrics Day 286 – ‘Future Hopes’

Hey everyone,

I think it was a couple of days ago where I wrote a set of lyrics explaining that I would have a phone call with a best friend of mine, the following day. I wrote about the feeling that I couldn’t be completely honest with her about how I was experiencing disappointment with my life, because I felt it might dampen her bright life and outlook.

But, maybe 5 minutes into the conversation, I forgot about all of those things. I think I spoke about them briefly later on, but I found myself speaking with her about things we were looking forward to in the future, when we were able to see each other. She’s a bright light, and that’s one of the main reasons I call her a best friend 🙂

Stay safe ~

Sean

Future Hopes (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Speaking with you
I look forward to the future
meeting at the airport
can’t wait for my departure

Discovering unique stores
whilst exploring the city
one of a kind
just like you and me

Speak to your grandfather
about the ancient stories
I’d love to visit those places
from the heroes of history

Discovering unique stores
whilst exploring the city
one of a kind
just like you and me
and I still don’t know
if I’m the person you expect
but I always feel warmth
in the light that you reflect

I hear that your Mum
also enjoys dramas
can watch them all together
sitting on the sofa
guess at first it’ll be strange
the feeling of a family
but perhaps this is the start
of a future where I’m happy

Discovering unique stores
whilst exploring the city
one of a kind
just like you and me
and I still don’t know
if I’m the person you expect
but I always feel warmth
in the light that you reflect

Lyrics Day 285 – ‘Mutual Respect’

Hey everyone,

last night I exchanged a few very appreciative, respectful messages with my best friend from back home. I’ve known him for 15 years now, and we’re very similar in our mindsets, which creates that mutual respect and understanding. It feels really nice, to have a friend like that, somebody who I can confide in without any issues.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Mutual Respect (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

They say to judge a man
by the company he keeps
and from this friend
honour continuously seeps

Thank you, my friend
for what you said tonight
when I began to doubt
you set my soul alight

Proved that the flame
still continues to burn
depending on others
I’ll continue to learn

Thank you, my friend
for what you said tonight
when I began to doubt
you set my soul alight
though we lack confidence
we’ll continue to fight
both of us, together
’til the end of the line

I often try to understand
the grand scheme of life
and seem to come up empty
only seeing the strife
that many feel trapped
within unfair systems
it’s our duty to stand
side by side, with them

Thank you, my friend
for what you said tonight
when I began to doubt
you set my soul alight
though we lack confidence
we’ll continue to fight
both of us, together
’til the end of the line

Lyrics Day 284 – ‘How Have You Been?’

Hey everyone,

tomorrow I have a phone call scheduled with one of my best friends – she’s full of life, and always darting from one goal to the next, which I really admire. Although I have purpose and passion, I’ve found myself disappointed in recent years, at the slow rate at which I’m moving forwards. It’s not like I’m completely dishonest with her when we speak, but I always find it difficult to be 100% truthful about how I’m feeling. To be honest, this is the same with a lot of other friends too, as I hate the idea of upsetting people.

Not that my life is bad, or I feel terrible, I guess it’s more disappointment, as I alluded to. But when somebody so vibrant speaks with me, I don’t want to dull her shine, so to speak. Who knows, after writing these lyrics, maybe this time, I will be a little more honest.

Stay safe ~

Sean

How Have You Been? (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

How have you been?
Well, if I’m being honest
life’s a little dull right now
and myself I have admonished

I know that you’ll express
details of your next venture
want to be great in your eyes
won’t explain my descension

I’m still considering
how to achieve my purpose
to be of value to this world
not just the surplus

I know that you’ll express
details of your next venture
want to be great in your eyes
won’t explain my descension
often wonder If I’m still
the friend that you believe in
guess I’ll continue to be jovial
but looks can be deceiving

Our occasional phone-call
is scheduled for tomorrow
wonder if my answers
will continue to be hollow
always intended to be truthful
but would it hurt you to listen?
The fall of a hero
who in your eyes once glistened

I know that you’ll express
details of your next venture
want to be great in your eyes
won’t explain my descension
often wonder If I’m still
the friend that you believe in
guess I’ll continue to be jovial
but looks can be deceiving

Lyrics Day 283 – ‘Prime’

Hey everyone,

a little bit in relation to yesterday’s thoughts, today’s lyrics reflect my frustrations at my overall position in life. Not that it’s all bad, but I can’t deny my disappointment at not having reached a certain level by this age, in relation to my own aspirations. Well, the only thing for it is to keep working hard, so let’s keep trying 🙂

Stay safe ~

Sean

Prime (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Supposed to lead the charge
first one out on the field
instead I’m stuck on the sidelines
playing second fiddle

So hard to raise my voice
in these crowded rooms
can’t display my character
express my point of view

Timidity and shyness
I’m sure there’s something more
behind these tired eyes
and pride that’s so sore

So hard to raise my voice
in these crowded rooms
can’t display my character
express my point of view
and somewhere in the future
I’ll have to cross that line
between fear and courage
in order to reach my prime

I look to the past
but there’s no excuse
for my behaviour
that of a recluse
I try to be empathetic
preach forgiveness
but it’s time for action
I have to bear witness

So hard to raise my voice
in these crowded rooms
can’t display my character
express my point of view
and somewhere in the future
I’ll have to cross that line
between fear and courage
in order to reach my prime