Lyrics Day Eighty Two – ‘One Person’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are about a struggle I’ve had for some time. Perhaps struggle is too serious a word, but certainly a psychological conundrum. I always wanted to help a lot of people and enact great change, and certainly during this time, when I’ve been unable to complete my regular volunteer duties, I’ve analysed my progress and found myself to be lacking. But, this didn’t just happen during this period of time, but for the last ten years, at least. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy to help somebody, but I always feel like it isn’t enough; like, there’s a higher mountain to climb in order to truly make my life count.

As a positive, it does mean that I’m always looking for new ways to support people in new ways, but it’s mostly a negative, because I never feel a lasting satisfaction from doing that, despite it being my life’s mission. I think it’s often because I imagine the top of the summit, the moment where the lives of thousands of people are saved, or improved, and everything else seems to pale in comparison to that ultimate goal.

These thoughts have been more prominent recently, and so I forced myself to consider it, whilst I was at work today. And I suddenly thought, ‘if helping one person isn’t worthwhile, then by that logic, helping a million is irrelevant, too.’

So, by the same token, I can say, because helping a million people is relevant, then one is, too.

I’ve been so caught up in my ultimate goal that I’ve actually declined invitations to volunteer events in the past, thinking ‘that won’t many help many people, so what’s the point?’ But, I was missing the point. It’s true that I want to change the lives of a lot of people for the better, as many as possible, in my life. But it’s the intention behind those acts that matters, and every single person is important in that journey. Whether I go on to help one more or a million more, my intention in living, and in those actions will be the same, and that’s what counts.

Stay safe, and thoughtful ~

Sean

One Person (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Had an epiphany today
perhaps I’ve finally solved
the mystery of my mind
why I never give applause

Continuously focused
on radical achievements
never stopped to focus
on what a single one meant

Whoever I helped
it was never enough
wanted the save the world
and I only saved one

Continuously focused
on radical achievements
never stopped to focus
on what a single one meant
Save one person or many?
Their value is the same
your intention is what matters
to support without delay

 
Made the mistake of thinking
my intentions were trivial
actions a drop in the ocean
unseen and inconsequential
Actually they mean everything
and that’s because
if one person isn’t worthwhile
then nobody is

 
Continuously focused
on radical achievements
never stopped to focus
on what a single one meant
To save one or many?
Their value is the same
your intention is what matters
to support without delay

Lyrics Day Eighty One – ‘April 26th’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics feature another special memory that I have. It was the deadline day for our first year of University, and my friends and I celebrated in the SU bar. To be honest, a gathering of so many people feels worlds away now, not because of lock-down, but because it’s been so long since we’ve all been together. But yeah, I remember just sitting down on the sofa, feeling exhausted but content and happy, as I stared out at all of the friends I’d made that year, sitting around me.

As I remarked last time, life seems to be made up of these single moments, and special memories. I think it’s about living in the best way possible for ourselves, and having as many of those treasured moments as possible – being brave enough to put ourselves out there, taking chances and sharing connections with the people we meet.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

April 26th (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

The end of year one
it was April 26th
all together in one photo
my nostalgia still sticks

Looking around the room
at each and every person
sat exhausted but contented
friendships began to blossom

Joe and Sean were laughing
I’d just met Dimitris
overheard another theory
from the mind of Steve

 
Looking around the room
at each and every person
sat exhausted but contented
friendships began to blossom
this time I wasn’t alone
but surrounded by friends
the feeling at that time
I wished it wouldn’t end

It was a blissful feeling
knowing I’d completed
my biggest challenge so far
not to be defeated
I’m glad that I resolved
to capture that image
15 of us together
a milestone in our pilgrimage

Looking around the room
at each and every person
sat exhausted but contented
friendships began to blossom
this time I wasn’t alone
but surrounded by friends
the feeling at that time
I wished it wouldn’t end

Lyrics Day Eighty – ‘Comfort’

Hey everyone,

I promised to write lyrics about various memories and experiences that I had, and today’s lyrics are based on a very brief moment, but one where I’ll always remember the feeling that I had. My brother wanted to buy a new football, and asked Dad to take him into town. I think I was probably 7 or 8 years old, I’m not sure. But, I remember watching them leave from the window, and just feeling so comfortable, in that moment.

Looking back, I think it was the security I felt, knowing where they were going, and that they would soon return. I comment on it briefly in the lyrics, but it’s funny how in a life made up of many years, single moments seem to define our existence, where we truly feel alive. I guess it’s just about making as many of those moments as possible.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Comfort (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

I’ll always remember the comfort
associated with that memory
father and brother outside
looking back at me

 
Sun was setting outside
pink coloured the sky
dull hum of the engine
as I exhaled a peaceful sigh

They were just going to town
I was staring through the window
acknowledged the cosy feeling
as I watched them go

Sun was setting outside
pink coloured the sky
dull hum of the engine
as I exhaled a peaceful sigh
Sounds strange to experience
happiness as they were leaving
but actually it was because
I knew they’d be returning

In the grand scheme of things
it was a microscopic event
but that’s what we remember
the special feeling in a moment
I’ve been living all these years
it makes a mockery of time
to remember only a fraction
where I felt truly alive

 
Sun was setting outside
pink coloured the sky
dull hum of the engine
as I exhaled a peaceful sigh
Sounds strange to experience
happiness as they were leaving
but actually it was because
I knew they’d be returning

Lyrics Day Seventy Nine – ‘Dial-a-Roast’

Hey everyone,

I’ve been thinking back on some good memories recently, and will probably write about some specific experiences over the next few days, or at least, my feelings about them. To give some context to the random sounding title this time, a few years ago, before university, my friends and I would go out together for a meal, once every month. I think it was actually the very first time we went out together, but Stuart randomly came up with an idea for takeaway roast dinners. The idea itself isn’t bad, but we had a lot of fun going over different scenarios and even filmed a mock advert for it!

In relation to that, and in writing these lyrics, I’ve loved looking back on that particular time. I’ve spoken a little about mindfulness, and perception of time, but I find that the easiest way to be caught in a single moment is just to be happy, as I was during these memories 🙂

Stay safe, and happy ~

Sean

‘Dial-a-Roast’ (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

I felt so contented
the six of us together
hysterical over your idea
memories I’ll hold forever

 
Allow me to step back
just for a second
to a moment in time
where momentous joy beckoned

 
Was your idea worthwhile?
Yes – it left a residue
something we’ll all remember
priceless times, high in value

 
Allow me to step back
just for a second
to a moment in time
where momentous joy beckoned
No thoughts of future or past
only friends around a table
sharing in the laughter
which would become a staple

Talked about it for weeks
and even filmed an advert
when I fluffed my lines
laughed till our stomachs hurt
To you guys, to those times
I’d like to raise a roast
always remember what you said
‘It’s not HARD to cook a roast!’

 
Allow me to step back
just for a second
to a moment in time
where momentous joy beckoned
No thoughts of future or past
only friends around a table
sharing in the laughter
which would become a staple

Lyrics Day Seventy Eight – ‘Path’

Hey everyone,

as you might have noticed, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently about my goals and position in life in relation to that. As part of that, I’ve realised that it’s okay to have an overarching purpose, but without clear, definable goals in order to achieve that purpose, everything will fall short.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Path (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Purpose isn’t enough
with a path to follow
without the right focus
I’m left feeling hollow

Give me a direction
a path to head toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward

I’ve continued to tread
irrespective of direction
it’s time to delve inwards,
towards introspection

 
Give me a direction
a path to move towards
a tangible target
a way to go forwards
an arrow without a target
it’s quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

To never consider outcomes
means never to hit the bullseye
arrived home feeling empty
achievements met with a sigh
what I have to imagine
are a series of stepping stones
each one represents a goal
for wasted time, I’ll atone

Give me a direction
a path to move toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward
an arrow without a target
feels quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

Lyrics Day Seventy Seven – ‘Normality 2.0’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics have nothing to do with yesterdays, despite having similar titles. Actually, I just got to thinking of the meaning of the word ‘normal’, and how it can be so abstract and subjective – essentially, normality changes for everybody, based on their circumstances. And, whilst we can engage in routines, every single person is unique, so there’s no way of expressing what ‘normal’ is. In that sense, the word almost seems meaningless. Anyway, here are some thoughts on normality.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Normality 2 (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

What is normality?
Asked myself that question
the answer of course
depends on your perception

 
In every single person
their experience is unique
so ‘normality’ as a term
is nothing but oblique

Even a shared moment
is experienced differently
two sets of eyes
perceptions shaped by their history

 
In every single person
their experience is unique
so ‘normality’ as a term
is nothing but oblique
Routines can be established
loved ones become a constant
but naming something ‘normal’
makes it less poignant

I’ve lived beside friends
for years at University
from the second our eyes opened
our paths altered drastically
the same pavement led
from building to building
but perspectives differ
the definition needs rekindling

 
In every single person
their experience is unique
so ‘normality’ as a term
is nothing but oblique
Routines can be established
loved ones become a constant
but naming something ‘normal’
makes it less poignant

Lyrics Day Seventy Six – ‘Normality’

Hey everyone,

I started these daily lyrics as a way to gain something positive from this pandemic that we’re all involved in, and in doing so, I’ve tried to stay away from any issues related to the pandemic itself. I’m sorry that today, the lyrics are related. My friend and I had a conversation recently, and it was on my mind.

I’m not sure where you’re all reading this blog from, but in the UK, we’re starting to ease restrictions, and allowing non-essential shops to open. My friend argued that this was a positive thing, in order to bolster the economy, and therefore the NHS. He also mentioned that it was positive for people’s mental health, which again is a good point.

However, I still feel that this ease of restrictions is coming too soon. I’d be happy to be proved wrong, but I can’t help feeling that we’re putting more lives at risk by doing so. My thinking is extremely black and white, it always has been, but as I said to him, if these easing restrictions result in even the loss of one more life, that’s forever, and irreversible, and I can’t accept it.

My point in writing this post is not to go against the Government, or anything like that – I believe they’re doing the best they can for people, but as an individual at least, I’m going to continue living as if we were in the previous phase of lock-down. As I said at the start of this blog, we’re all in this together, and if you feel that I can support you in any way, then please let me know.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Normality (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Had a conversation with a friend
when to return to normality
it seems like people’s lives
are put beneath the economy

He made reasoned points
but I just couldn’t listen
amongst the talk of economic priority
my eyes began to glisten

 
‘They’re one and the same,
the economy will strengthen the NHS’
but I couldn’t risk a single life
what’s irreversible is death

He made reasoned points
but I just couldn’t listen
amongst the talk of economic priority
my eyes began to glisten
it’s an unmistakable fact
my thinking is just black and white
but above livelihood
I’ll always treasure life

 
Perhaps he’s correct
best choice in a bad situation
only time will tell
but I’ll still live in isolation
Our conversation was amicable
and what will dictate the future
in this era of disagreements
is the spirit to stick together

 
He made reasoned points
but I just couldn’t listen
amongst the talk of economic priority
my eyes began to glisten
it’s an unmistakable fact
my thinking is just black and white
but above livelihood
I’ll always treasure life

Lyrics Day Seventy Five – ‘Happiness’

Hey everyone,

today’s post concerns the philosophy of happiness. It’s something that’s been on mind recently, because I’ve spoken to various people in my life about their problems, and that continues with my friends, and people at work too. I watched a talk around a year or so ago, where the speaker commented:

“Don’t you find that there are people who, no matter what happens, can always find something to be happy about? And, similarly, those who can always find something negative.”

I’ve found that to be true, particularly when I volunteered for a brief period in a hospital. There were other factors of course, but it seemed like those people with a positive attitude seemed to have more energy and recover faster, in contrast to those who were held a defeatist mindset.

With that in mind, I hope that during this challenging period of time, you’re able to discover your own happiness.

Stay safe, and happy ~

Sean

Happiness (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

It’s funny how those
who seemingly have nothing
still experience happiness
never stay up all night wondering

The ones who are happy
never question what it means
surrounded by loved ones
they only feel at ease

Happiness it seems
is a grateful state of mind
unaffected by status
unfettered through time

The ones who are happy
never question what it means
surrounded by loved ones
they only feel at ease
difficult times are common
and everyone feels sadness
but what counts is our perception
and the people around us

My happiest moment?
I’m immersed in connection
in each and every memory
time became irrelevant
Remember that feeling
and count my blessings
the thought never crossed my mind
that anything was missing

 
The ones who are happy
never question what it means
surrounded by loved ones
they only feel at ease
difficult times are common
and everyone feels sadness
but what counts is our perception
and the people around us

Lyrics Day Seventy Four – ‘Future’

Hey everyone,

in relation to working towards my purpose, I wrote these lyrics in frustration at the difficulties that people experience in this world, and my hopes on changing it. I think I spoke about it in a previous entry, but so many people seem to endure unnecessary suffering, by which I mean, suffering that could be avoided. Of course, everybody will suffer, through the loss of loved ones, or relationship breakdowns, but there exists so much pain, and I believe the underlying causes behind this pain could be eradicated.

I was thinking about how I could change things, and for me, the best path seems to be a position in Government, though I will finish my studies to become a therapist, no matter what path I take in the future.

I guess the only thing left to say is, ‘Vote for me!’ 😉

Stay safe ~

Sean

Future (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

There are so many people
experiencing unnecessary suffering
so many in power
promising much, seemingly bluffing

On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without

 
Let’s start with education
and teach a love of learning
and build centres for the homeless
skills and dignity, they’re earning

 
On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without
hope, love and meaning
that comes from self-belief
I’ll help every single one of them
unleash the potential beneath

 
So many problems
in this troubled world
I don’t know how
but when I’m 100 years old
I’ll look back on my life
and know I tried my best
to create a bright future
everything I imagined, nothing less

 
On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without
hope, love and meaning
that comes from self-belief
I’ll help every single one of them
unleash the potential beneath

Lyrics Day Seventy Three – ‘Well Done’

Hey everyone,

I think these lyrics explain their meaning pretty clearly, so I won’t provide an explanation today – I’ll just again highlight the value of writing out my thoughts every day, which has been a cathartic experience.

Stay well ~

Sean

Well Done (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Saw something in a drama
that strongly resonated
the lady was alone
tired, low and deflated

Every time she made it
through another day
she’d pat herself on the back
‘Good job, Kang Dan-i’

 
Nobody was there for her
but she put on a show
pretended she was happy
and had places to go

Every time she made it
through another day
she’d pat herself on the back
‘Good job, Kang Dan-i’
I’ve gotten into the habit
of tapping my own shoulder
seems to be less people around
as I’ve gotten older

As the story progressed
she had someone watching over her
no need to raise her arm
and tap her own shoulder
I have several friends
calling on the phone
but what’s always strange
is I still feel alone

Every time she made it
through another day
she’d pat herself on the back
‘Good job, Kang Dan-i’
I’ve gotten into the habit
of tapping my own shoulder
seems to be less people around
as I’ve gotten older