Lyrics Day Eighty Eight – ‘Smoothie and Biscuits’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics present yet another small, sentimental feeling/memory which I recall fondly. When I was younger, I had a part-time job, and on the eve of my two days off, when I got off the train, before biking home I would stop off at Sainsbury’s to get a smoothie and some chocolate biscuits, ready to enjoy later whilst playing a video game. I actually kept up this tradition for some time, which my colleagues would often make fun of! In any case, though small, it was a really nice feeling for me each time, and I can look back on that time with a warm heart.

As a side note, last week, my friends and I recorded the first in what I hope will be many episodes of ‘Coffee Table Musings’, a podcast. I’ve been considering ways in which I can use my time at home more effectively, and a podcast is perfect – it can all be done online and enables me to spend time with my friends, during this difficult period of time. The first episode speaks about the dreams/nightmares that my friends and I have had, and we offer up our interpretations of those. I love to explore different topics, but what’s most fascinating to me are people’s perspectives, and the reasons why they feel that way. I hope that the podcast can give me a chance to learn and grow, and live in a better way.

I’m not sure how regularly the podcasts will be recorded, because it depends on the availability of my friends, but I have a lot of ideas, and will do them as often as I’m able to 🙂

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Smoothie and Biscuits (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Biked home on Friday afternoon
stopped off at Sainsbury’s
not a care in the world
just biscuits and a smoothie

Always stayed up late
weekend ahead of me
playing video games
life repeating endlessly

The endless repetition
never seemed a waste of time
I hadn’t accomplished much
but each second was mine

Always stayed up late
weekend ahead of me
playing video games
life repeating endlessly
never considered tomorrow
but I didn’t mind
with my snacks beside me
I was more than satisfied

Somewhere in writing this
I’m searching for a balance
between a meaningful life
and comfortable moments
As the years passed
snacks seemed a waste
felt guilty about gaming
tomorrow was making haste

 
Always stayed up late
weekend ahead of me
playing video games
life repeating endlessly
never considered tomorrow
but I didn’t mind
with my snacks beside me
I was more than satisfied

Lyrics Day Seventy Eight – ‘Path’

Hey everyone,

as you might have noticed, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently about my goals and position in life in relation to that. As part of that, I’ve realised that it’s okay to have an overarching purpose, but without clear, definable goals in order to achieve that purpose, everything will fall short.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Path (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Purpose isn’t enough
with a path to follow
without the right focus
I’m left feeling hollow

Give me a direction
a path to head toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward

I’ve continued to tread
irrespective of direction
it’s time to delve inwards,
towards introspection

 
Give me a direction
a path to move towards
a tangible target
a way to go forwards
an arrow without a target
it’s quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

To never consider outcomes
means never to hit the bullseye
arrived home feeling empty
achievements met with a sigh
what I have to imagine
are a series of stepping stones
each one represents a goal
for wasted time, I’ll atone

Give me a direction
a path to move toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward
an arrow without a target
feels quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

Lyrics Day Seventy Four – ‘Future’

Hey everyone,

in relation to working towards my purpose, I wrote these lyrics in frustration at the difficulties that people experience in this world, and my hopes on changing it. I think I spoke about it in a previous entry, but so many people seem to endure unnecessary suffering, by which I mean, suffering that could be avoided. Of course, everybody will suffer, through the loss of loved ones, or relationship breakdowns, but there exists so much pain, and I believe the underlying causes behind this pain could be eradicated.

I was thinking about how I could change things, and for me, the best path seems to be a position in Government, though I will finish my studies to become a therapist, no matter what path I take in the future.

I guess the only thing left to say is, ‘Vote for me!’ 😉

Stay safe ~

Sean

Future (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

There are so many people
experiencing unnecessary suffering
so many in power
promising much, seemingly bluffing

On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without

 
Let’s start with education
and teach a love of learning
and build centres for the homeless
skills and dignity, they’re earning

 
On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without
hope, love and meaning
that comes from self-belief
I’ll help every single one of them
unleash the potential beneath

 
So many problems
in this troubled world
I don’t know how
but when I’m 100 years old
I’ll look back on my life
and know I tried my best
to create a bright future
everything I imagined, nothing less

 
On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without
hope, love and meaning
that comes from self-belief
I’ll help every single one of them
unleash the potential beneath

Lyrics Day Seventy Two – ‘Asleep’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics were inspired by some random scrolling on social media, where I came across a photo of an old friend – I’ve known him since primary school. I think his wife had taken the photo, and he was sleeping, apparently exhausted from his fatherly duties. To be honest, apart from one of two cases, this same situation is happening for most people I went to school with, and I’m still hoping that my dream girl messages me back, which made me smile (if a little ironically)!

Still, the photo made me wonder if that situation would ever happen for me, and that’s what these words are about.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Asleep (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Browsing through online photos
one of my old friends
saw an image of him sleeping
family life paying dividends

A life so contented
or that’s how it seemed
surrounded by loved ones
smiling while falling asleep

 
His wife had praised him
for being a great Dad
he seemed so peaceful
part of me wishes I had

A life so contented
or that’s how it seemed
surrounded by loved ones
smiling while falling asleep
It must be a nice feeling
to have your own family
but I’m just not ready
there’s no-one here to wake me

So many classmates
are in the same situation
married with children
way above my station
I’m just sat here waiting
on that green light
can’t help but smile
I was always a little behind

 
A life so contented
or that’s how it seemed
surrounded by loved ones
smiling while falling asleep
It must be a nice feeling
to have your own family
but I’m just not ready
there’s no-one here to wake me

Lyrics Day Sixty Seven – ‘New Threads’

Hey everyone,

today I found myself at work, thinking: “What am I wearing?! Is this how I’d like to present myself?”

In my defence, my clothes were clean and tidy, and I didn’t put them on without any thought to how I’d look, but the realisation hit me as I looked in the mirror. So, this evening, I’m going to go through my entire wardrobe and throw away/donate anything that I no longer wear, or don’t like. This is a pretty normal thing for most of us to do every once in a while, but it also relates to some profound thinking that I’ve had recently, in which I realised that the intention given to each decision can bring with it meaningful change.

In the example of clothes, the decision to spend some money on myself, and improve my image, can help to bring about lasting change, not only for the obvious reasons, but also because of the intention to put effort into a decision, and take care of myself. I mentioned it on a previous post quite recently, but I feel like the intention with which we live our lives is just as important as the end result of our pursuits, and the intention to care for myself in this way, could help to have larger implications in life, leading to self-care in  different aspects, and improving my confidence.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

New Threads (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Clearing out my clothes
throwing things away
it’s much more important
than some momentary phase

Deeper consequences arise
from each decision we make
it all begins with us
deciding to partake

 
Tonight’s organisation
isn’t just about new jeans
a new attitude, a different path
I’m sewing the seams

Deeper consequences arise
from each decision we make
it all begins with us
deciding to partake
in every part of life
not turning away in dread
I’ll begin to treasure myself
and start with some new threads

Stitching together my dreams
one thread at a time
one day I’ll become
the person in my mind
it may seem trivial
to start on the outside
but I realised the details
are the way to turn the tide

 
Deeper consequences arise
from each decision we make
it all begins with us
deciding to partake
in every part of life
not turning away in dread
I’ll begin to treasure myself
and start with some new threads

 

 

Lyrics Day Sixty Six – ‘April 15th’

Hey everyone,

if you’ve subscribed to this blog, or just happened to have read some of my previous lyrics, you’ll know that there’s a girl that I’ve cared for deeply, ever since I met her at University several years ago. She lives in a different country, and even though I’m able to get hold of her anytime through a messaging app, she doesn’t have a lot of free time. Still, I have fond memories of those days, and my feelings are clear, even now. Honestly, I don’t think she feels the same way, and there’s probably no chance of us ever being together, but to date, nobody has ever made me feel the way that she did.

As I say, there’s a high chance that nothing with come of this, but anytime that she does message me, I feel that same way all over again, and it’s been amazing to experience that, no matter what happens. Last night, I checked over our old messages, over the time when I first remember feeling that way, and it turns out it was April 15th 🙂

Stay safe ~

Sean

April 15th (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Searching for the beginning
of my own love story
checked through the annals
of our message history

We’d met before in person
but on that night
university was closed
you needed my help online

Usually I’m good with words
but it’s hard to describe it
the feeling on that day
eagerly waiting, light on the inside

 
We’d met before in person
but on that night
university was closed
you needed my help online
I’m so thankful you did
we spoke about our dreams
knew then that I cared for you
it was April Fifteenth

Last night I looked again
through all of those messages
of our time at University
the last vestiges
So lucky to still know you
though now your contact is rare
remembering April fifteenth
for you, I’ll always be there

We’d met before in person
but on that night
university was closed
you needed my help online
I’m so thankful you did
we spoke about our dreams
knew then that I cared for you
it was April Fifteenth

Lyrics Day Fifty Nine – ‘Vision’

Hey everyone,

When you think of what you want to do, or who you want to become, do you ever visualise what it would feel like to celebrate that moment? Simply, these words describe a little about the vision that I have. I always loved the idea of celebrating with friends all around me – the people who had walked together with me on my journey, and realised the struggle and effort it had taken to get to this point.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Vision (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

I have this dream
lights provide a gentle glow
to all my friends around me
everyone I know

Staring out at all of you
an immense feeling of pride
tears roll down my cheeks
finally, time is on my side

 
I’ve achieved something great
they all raise a glass
cheering out my name
moment never seems to pass

Staring out at all of you
an immense feeling of pride
tears roll down my cheeks
finally, time is on my side
I see my purpose clearly
in detail, with precision
but right now it’s just a thought
a hope, a dream, a vision

I’ve felt so dreary recently
miles away from that moment
seeking a flash of light
some form of atonement
I have a long way to go
that much is clear
with your help I can do it
but it starts with me, right here

Staring out at all of you
an immense feeling of pride
tears roll down my cheeks
finally, time is on my side
I see my purpose clearly
in detail, with precision
but right now it’s just a thought
a hope, a dream, a vision

Lyrics Day Fifty Five – ‘Jazz’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics were written about a strong feeling I had recently, evoked by the wonderful sound of jazz music. I’d finished my work a little early, and so I put on some jazz. I love the way it makes me feel; so calm, but imaginative, at the same time. On this particular occasion, I gazed out onto the balcony and imagined what was for me, a special scene.

Towards the end of the piece, I also reflect on the desire to make these imaginings a reality – often, I’m guilty of dreaming up a lot of amazing scenarios, but feel too fearful to take action, and make them happen.

I hope that you enjoy these words, and perhaps they can help you to reflect on your own hopes and wishes 🙂

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Jazz (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Heard the sounds of soft piano
accompanied by gentle strings
caused my mind to wander
imagined all manner of things

Purple coloured the skies
as you stood out on the balcony
light glistening in your eyes
realised what you meant to me

Somehow the slow sounds
paused the world around us
time came to a standstill
each second was momentous

 
Purple coloured the skies
as you stood out on the balcony
light glistening in your eyes
realised what you meant to me
Staring out into the sky
stood together in silence
interlocking hands
I was lost in that moment

 
I must be dreaming again
my eyes are moistening
reality’s grip is tough
each passing second tightening
But my life is my own
I don’t have any excuses
I can break out of my shell
stop being so reclusive

Purple coloured the skies
as you stood out on the balcony
light glistening in your eyes
realised what you meant to me
Staring out into the sky
stood together in silence
interlocking hands
I was lost in that moment

Lyrics Day Forty Seven – ‘Green Light’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are written with a small degree of humour, since ‘green light’ literally refers to the colour of the light that displays once I receive a message from a certain app. Have you ever felt that way? Looking at your phone, and waiting for a message, but then time seems to drift by endlessly as it never arrives? I wrote these lyrics yesterday, and I can look back on them and smile now, as the message did finally arrive – however, waiting certainly wasn’t a nice feeling!

Stay well ~

Sean

 

Green light (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Staring at my phone
waiting for the little green light
which signifies your message
ending my plight

Thought about it clearly
my exact reply
words from my heart
no more wondering why

 
You have so much work
always staying up late
take care of yourself
my message can wait

 
Thought about it clearly
my exact reply
words from my heart
no more wondering why
I have my response
the end is in sight
just waiting for you
to give me the green light

All of my doubt
so quickly absolved
whatever the ending
a sense of resolve
striding forwards
however far I get
I’ll tell you everything
no fear of regret

 
Thought about it clearly
my exact reply
words from my heart
no more wondering why
I have my response
the end is in sight
just waiting for you
to give me the green light

Lyrics Day Forty Five – ‘Promise’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are written about a promise, to myself, and to someone very special to me. I wrote these yesterday, on May 18th, and the evening of May 17th, we had a wonderful conversation. It was only via text, but I can remember every word. I told her, as I wrote about recently, that I was struggling a bit with identity – the reasons behind my actions.

She really encouraged me, and told me how much I meant to her. I feel like, if I inspired her, then I’ve definitely done something right 🙂 I won’t say that I know everything about myself, but she reminded me of what I stood for, and for her, and for me, I won’t ever stop trying to become the very best version of myself.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Promise (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

I’ll make this promise
both to you and myself
devoted to my purpose
leaving nothing on the shelf

 
I was struggling with identity
doubting the reasons why
but with just a few words
you’re right by my side

Such a warm feeling
from words on a screen
still, heart to heart
I understand what you mean

 
I was struggling with identity
doubting the reasons why
but with just a few words
you’re right by my side
Always pushing me onward
and keeping me honest
I’ll become my best self
for you, I promise

 
It happens too often
my heart filled with doubt
always lost in thought
considering what I’m without
but you just show up
out of the blue
inspiring me always –
I’ll do it for you

I was struggling with identity
doubting the reasons why
but with just a few words
you’re right by my side
Always pushing me onward
and keeping me honest
I’ll be the best version of me
for you, I promise