Lyrics Day Seventy Eight – ‘Path’

Hey everyone,

as you might have noticed, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently about my goals and position in life in relation to that. As part of that, I’ve realised that it’s okay to have an overarching purpose, but without clear, definable goals in order to achieve that purpose, everything will fall short.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Path (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Purpose isn’t enough
with a path to follow
without the right focus
I’m left feeling hollow

Give me a direction
a path to head toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward

I’ve continued to tread
irrespective of direction
it’s time to delve inwards,
towards introspection

 
Give me a direction
a path to move towards
a tangible target
a way to go forwards
an arrow without a target
it’s quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

To never consider outcomes
means never to hit the bullseye
arrived home feeling empty
achievements met with a sigh
what I have to imagine
are a series of stepping stones
each one represents a goal
for wasted time, I’ll atone

Give me a direction
a path to move toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward
an arrow without a target
feels quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

Lyrics Day Seventy Seven – ‘Normality 2.0’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics have nothing to do with yesterdays, despite having similar titles. Actually, I just got to thinking of the meaning of the word ‘normal’, and how it can be so abstract and subjective – essentially, normality changes for everybody, based on their circumstances. And, whilst we can engage in routines, every single person is unique, so there’s no way of expressing what ‘normal’ is. In that sense, the word almost seems meaningless. Anyway, here are some thoughts on normality.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Normality 2 (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

What is normality?
Asked myself that question
the answer of course
depends on your perception

 
In every single person
their experience is unique
so ‘normality’ as a term
is nothing but oblique

Even a shared moment
is experienced differently
two sets of eyes
perceptions shaped by their history

 
In every single person
their experience is unique
so ‘normality’ as a term
is nothing but oblique
Routines can be established
loved ones become a constant
but naming something ‘normal’
makes it less poignant

I’ve lived beside friends
for years at University
from the second our eyes opened
our paths altered drastically
the same pavement led
from building to building
but perspectives differ
the definition needs rekindling

 
In every single person
their experience is unique
so ‘normality’ as a term
is nothing but oblique
Routines can be established
loved ones become a constant
but naming something ‘normal’
makes it less poignant

Lyrics Day Seventy Six – ‘Normality’

Hey everyone,

I started these daily lyrics as a way to gain something positive from this pandemic that we’re all involved in, and in doing so, I’ve tried to stay away from any issues related to the pandemic itself. I’m sorry that today, the lyrics are related. My friend and I had a conversation recently, and it was on my mind.

I’m not sure where you’re all reading this blog from, but in the UK, we’re starting to ease restrictions, and allowing non-essential shops to open. My friend argued that this was a positive thing, in order to bolster the economy, and therefore the NHS. He also mentioned that it was positive for people’s mental health, which again is a good point.

However, I still feel that this ease of restrictions is coming too soon. I’d be happy to be proved wrong, but I can’t help feeling that we’re putting more lives at risk by doing so. My thinking is extremely black and white, it always has been, but as I said to him, if these easing restrictions result in even the loss of one more life, that’s forever, and irreversible, and I can’t accept it.

My point in writing this post is not to go against the Government, or anything like that – I believe they’re doing the best they can for people, but as an individual at least, I’m going to continue living as if we were in the previous phase of lock-down. As I said at the start of this blog, we’re all in this together, and if you feel that I can support you in any way, then please let me know.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Normality (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Had a conversation with a friend
when to return to normality
it seems like people’s lives
are put beneath the economy

He made reasoned points
but I just couldn’t listen
amongst the talk of economic priority
my eyes began to glisten

 
‘They’re one and the same,
the economy will strengthen the NHS’
but I couldn’t risk a single life
what’s irreversible is death

He made reasoned points
but I just couldn’t listen
amongst the talk of economic priority
my eyes began to glisten
it’s an unmistakable fact
my thinking is just black and white
but above livelihood
I’ll always treasure life

 
Perhaps he’s correct
best choice in a bad situation
only time will tell
but I’ll still live in isolation
Our conversation was amicable
and what will dictate the future
in this era of disagreements
is the spirit to stick together

 
He made reasoned points
but I just couldn’t listen
amongst the talk of economic priority
my eyes began to glisten
it’s an unmistakable fact
my thinking is just black and white
but above livelihood
I’ll always treasure life

Lyrics Day Seventy Five – ‘Happiness’

Hey everyone,

today’s post concerns the philosophy of happiness. It’s something that’s been on mind recently, because I’ve spoken to various people in my life about their problems, and that continues with my friends, and people at work too. I watched a talk around a year or so ago, where the speaker commented:

“Don’t you find that there are people who, no matter what happens, can always find something to be happy about? And, similarly, those who can always find something negative.”

I’ve found that to be true, particularly when I volunteered for a brief period in a hospital. There were other factors of course, but it seemed like those people with a positive attitude seemed to have more energy and recover faster, in contrast to those who were held a defeatist mindset.

With that in mind, I hope that during this challenging period of time, you’re able to discover your own happiness.

Stay safe, and happy ~

Sean

Happiness (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

It’s funny how those
who seemingly have nothing
still experience happiness
never stay up all night wondering

The ones who are happy
never question what it means
surrounded by loved ones
they only feel at ease

Happiness it seems
is a grateful state of mind
unaffected by status
unfettered through time

The ones who are happy
never question what it means
surrounded by loved ones
they only feel at ease
difficult times are common
and everyone feels sadness
but what counts is our perception
and the people around us

My happiest moment?
I’m immersed in connection
in each and every memory
time became irrelevant
Remember that feeling
and count my blessings
the thought never crossed my mind
that anything was missing

 
The ones who are happy
never question what it means
surrounded by loved ones
they only feel at ease
difficult times are common
and everyone feels sadness
but what counts is our perception
and the people around us

Lyrics Day Seventy Three – ‘Well Done’

Hey everyone,

I think these lyrics explain their meaning pretty clearly, so I won’t provide an explanation today – I’ll just again highlight the value of writing out my thoughts every day, which has been a cathartic experience.

Stay well ~

Sean

Well Done (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Saw something in a drama
that strongly resonated
the lady was alone
tired, low and deflated

Every time she made it
through another day
she’d pat herself on the back
‘Good job, Kang Dan-i’

 
Nobody was there for her
but she put on a show
pretended she was happy
and had places to go

Every time she made it
through another day
she’d pat herself on the back
‘Good job, Kang Dan-i’
I’ve gotten into the habit
of tapping my own shoulder
seems to be less people around
as I’ve gotten older

As the story progressed
she had someone watching over her
no need to raise her arm
and tap her own shoulder
I have several friends
calling on the phone
but what’s always strange
is I still feel alone

Every time she made it
through another day
she’d pat herself on the back
‘Good job, Kang Dan-i’
I’ve gotten into the habit
of tapping my own shoulder
seems to be less people around
as I’ve gotten older

Lyrics Day Seventy Two – ‘Asleep’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics were inspired by some random scrolling on social media, where I came across a photo of an old friend – I’ve known him since primary school. I think his wife had taken the photo, and he was sleeping, apparently exhausted from his fatherly duties. To be honest, apart from one of two cases, this same situation is happening for most people I went to school with, and I’m still hoping that my dream girl messages me back, which made me smile (if a little ironically)!

Still, the photo made me wonder if that situation would ever happen for me, and that’s what these words are about.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Asleep (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Browsing through online photos
one of my old friends
saw an image of him sleeping
family life paying dividends

A life so contented
or that’s how it seemed
surrounded by loved ones
smiling while falling asleep

 
His wife had praised him
for being a great Dad
he seemed so peaceful
part of me wishes I had

A life so contented
or that’s how it seemed
surrounded by loved ones
smiling while falling asleep
It must be a nice feeling
to have your own family
but I’m just not ready
there’s no-one here to wake me

So many classmates
are in the same situation
married with children
way above my station
I’m just sat here waiting
on that green light
can’t help but smile
I was always a little behind

 
A life so contented
or that’s how it seemed
surrounded by loved ones
smiling while falling asleep
It must be a nice feeling
to have your own family
but I’m just not ready
there’s no-one here to wake me

Lyrics Day Seventy One – ‘5am’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are written about the latest time that I’ve ever arrived home, from a night out. I don’t drink, and to be honest I’m not great with group social occasions, so I don’t often have nights out. But on this occasion, I stayed the whole time, until around midnight, then one of my friends asked me to walk her home, as something had upset her on the night; I tried for a while to cheer her up, which led to my late return home.

Although it hasn’t happened to me very much, I always loved the idea of walking home in the calm early morning, after a night out with friends. There’s something about sharing that time together, and being able to reflect on it in the afterglow.

Stay safe ~

Sean

5am (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Haven’t had many nights
that went on past eleven
but arriving home at 5am
felt a little like heaven

 
I’d always dreamed about
those sorts of nights
meaningful conversations
walking home in early morning light

 
I escorted her home
she’d had a stressful time
‘you’ve got so much to live for’
that was my line

 
I’d always dreamed about
those sorts of nights
meaningful conversations
walking home in early daylight
the streets at that time
there’s a sense of camaraderie
I noticed their warmth
groups of friends walking by me

At the start of the night
I was a little worried
promised myself pizza
whenever that might be
Strolled through the dawn-lit streets
arrived home at 5
I still cooked that pizza
but could barely open my eyes

 
I’d always dreamed about
those sorts of nights
meaningful conversations
walking home in early daylight
the streets at that time
there’s a sense of camaraderie
I noticed their warmth
groups of friends walking by me

 

Lyrics Day Seventy – ‘Library’

Hey everyone,

I’ve been wanting to write lyrics about the library I used to go to for some time, and was reminded of it this morning, in my phone call with a friend. If you’ve read some of my previous lyrics, you’ll know that my friends and I often visited the city, which was around 15 miles from where we lived. Over time, they built a huge public library, in a building which also contained restaurants and coffee shops.

I’m an introvert, and thrive in calm, peaceful environments. So, the library always gave me a feeling of contentment, and I was happy to relive that 🙂

Stay well ~

Sean

 

Library (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Always loved that place
full of old and musky tomes
borrowed as many comics
as I could carry home

Discovered it over summer
first one back from uni
that huge glass palace
the grand city library

 
The sun would set outside
as we sat down for coffee
knowledge all around us
in the centre of the city

Discovered it over summer
first one back from uni
that huge glass palace
the grand city library
As I stepped inside
only gentle sounds were heard
life began to soften
felt like a separate world

It was a magical feeling
for the short while I attended
reminded of the past,
memories of my childhood
Those walls became synonymous
with the feelings in my heart
about that special city
where life would finally start

 
Discovered it over summer
first one back from uni
that huge glass palace
the grand city library
As I stepped inside
only gentle sounds were heard
life began to soften
felt like a separate world

Lyrics Day Sixty Nine – ‘Notice’

Hey everyone,

last night I was speaking to one of my best friends via message, for the first time in over a week. She told me she’d been feeling bad for most of that time, and that’s why she hadn’t messaged me, but then I thought: ‘Why didn’t I message?’

Fair enough, with some friends, you have lower standards, where you’ll just speak once a month or so, but with this person, I shouldn’t have left it so long. That perhaps sounds a little bit dramatic, but it’s a standard that I always wanted to live by. I know what it feels like to be alone, and I never want anybody else to feel that way.

When you read today’s lyrics, you may think they’re a little negative and overly-critical, but these words, and all of the others that I’ve written so far, are helping to consider different topics and feelings more deeply, and because of that, I’m able to know myself better. In fact, I’ve started a project where I’m analysing the different aspects of my life that I’d like to improve, in separate documents. So for example, I’ve been working on understanding my identity further for some time, writing a document gathering my thoughts, but I’ve also created a folder (on my computer) collecting style ideas, as that’s another thing I’d like to improve on when this lock down is over. It may sound a little too rigid to deal with emotional and philosophical issues, but it helps me to organise my thoughts – to write down the things I’d like to improve, and see them there in front of me, in black and white. I want to treat it as a checklist.

As another example, I’ve decided to create a folder concerning my physical health and fitness. In that folder initially will be a document writing down what things I feel are wrong with me (running style, calf muscles etc), and that I could improve on, and then I’ll do some research and create some documents which will help me to find the answers. I’ve gone a little off track, but I just wanted to explain where thinking deeper about the feelings I have has led me – thanks for continuing to read this!

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Notice (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

My friend yesterday she told me
she’d been in a bad mood all week
I’m sorry that I never asked
during that time, we didn’t even speak

 
There are so many souls
out adrift in the sea
searching for an anchor
someone to hear their plea

It’s easy to say we’re busy
to turn away and feign ignorance
but I didn’t want to be that person
I wanted to make a difference

There are so many souls
out adrift in the sea
searching for an anchor
someone to hear their plea
as they drift in the cold abyss
have somebody to float with
but right now that’s not me
I didn’t even notice

Say I shouldn’t blame myself
but that’s just an excuse
it’s easy to send a message
instead of being a recluse
I need to do better
in every single aspect
work harder every second
and earn some self-respect

 
There are so many souls
out adrift in the sea
searching for an anchor
someone to hear their plea
as they drift in the cold abyss
have somebody to float with
but right now that’s not me
I didn’t even notice

Lyrics Day Sixty Eight – ‘How’ve you been?’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are focused on the regret I have, after losing a friend several years ago. I felt that he made a mistake, and because of my stubbornness, we haven’t spoken properly since. I just thought about it again recently, and writing these lyrics helped me to reflect on my feelings.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

How’ve you been? (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

How have you been
since we last spoke?
It’s been at least a year
there’s a lump in my throat

I’ve missing from the pictures
you’ve taken over these years
I think it’s all my fault
now I’m alone, as I feared

 
You’ve built your own home
and have your own family
our paths seem so different
as far away as they could be

I’ve missing from the pictures
you’ve taken over these years
I think it’s all my fault
now I’m alone, as I feared
Just wanted to say I’m sorry
even if it’s not in person
so how have you been?
I hope you’re not still hurting

Could we go back?
I’m not sure I deserve it
no longer the friend you knew
a totally different person
lacking in self-confidence
perhaps you’re the reason why
I feel shame and regret
to myself, I had to lie

I’ve missing from the pictures
you’ve taken over these years
I think it’s all my fault
now I’m alone, as I feared
Just wanted to say I’m sorry
even if it’s not in person
so how have you been?
I hope you’re not still hurting