Lyrics Day Ninety Two – ‘Pigeons on the Roof’

Hey everyone,

these lyrics were a lot of fun to write, and to think about, in the moment itself. I won’t explain too much before you have the chance to read the words, but I was just idly staring out of my window as the sun set in the sky, when I noticed some pigeons atop a building site. My thoughts went on from there šŸ™‚

Stay safe ~

Sean

Pigeons on the Roof (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Looked out of my window
sun setting in the sky
a flock of birds were dawdling
atop a construction site

Suddenly came to think
how their view differed from mine
if put in that position
would I be inclined

 
Though just a short distance away
their perspective was entirely different
not only in position
but from view and experience

Suddenly came to think
how their view differed from mine
if put in that position
would I be inclined
to gaze out at the beauty beneath
and have the strength to move forward?
Or remain trepidatious
stumbling to the exit, shy and awkward

 
I loved the idea
perspective can be altered
from just a few steps away
current perception falters
it always gave me hope
and something to run towards
that everything can change
and I can finally step forward

 
Suddenly came to think
how their view differed from mine
if put in that position
would I be inclined
to gaze out at the beauty beneath
and have the strength to move forward?
Or remain trepidatious
stumbling to the exit, shy and awkward

Lyrics Day Ninety One – ‘Snowball’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics share my experience of motivation, or I should say the key to motivation. I always put a lot of pressure on myself to be productive each day, but of course there are times when I feel a lack of motivation, and over time, with reading and life experience, I’ve realised that in order to be motivated, the first step is literally to stand, and do anything. In the lyrics, I speak about doing the washing up and how that helped me, but it can be anything. Then, the framework of your mind somehow changes – your posture, your intention, your movement, they all play a part and help motivation to grow, just from a small start.Ā  As I read, ‘the key to motivation is motivation.’

The reason the lyrics are named ‘snowball’ is because it’s similar to that effect – initially, you have a very small flake of snow, but over time, more snow accumulates and the snowball is created – it gets larger and larger.

(I’ve had a very long day and I’m not sure I explained that properly, so if you have any questions, please feel free to comment!)

Stay safe ~

Sean

Snowball (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Feeling tired and lethargic
not an ounce of inclination
realised the ‘snowball effect’
was intrinsic to motivation

The first step is standing
it all begins with action
the intention to move
instigates a reaction

Started by doing something
decided on the washing up
as the bubbles worked their magic
I began to leave my ruck

 
The first step is standing
it all begins with action
the intention to move
instigates a reaction
That’s why even small tasks
can aid progress overall
because little by little
motivation begins to snowball

I realised then it didn’t matter
exactly what I did
as long as I didn’t remain
sincere, but somehow glib
with those gradual steps
I regained a sense of peace
my snowball became larger
piece by fluffy piece

The first step is standing
it all begins with action
the intention to move
instigates a reaction
That’s why even small tasks
can aid progress overall
because little by little
motivation begins to snowball

Lyrics Day Ninety – ‘Envy’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics concern the feeling of envy I experienced yesterday. I was just having some cereal on my day off, and scrolling through my phone, where I came across a photo of a girl I used to volunteer with, who is currently teaching in Korea. I don’t think I’ve mentioned this on the blog, but I had an idea recently that in order to grow and develop my confidence, I would like to teach English in China, and move there for at least one year. I’m unable to do it right now because I still want to save up more money as a back-up plan, but to see somebody who was several years younger than me, already flourishing that position meant that I felt quite disappointed with myself.

Fortunately, I’ve experienced this before and have developed ways to overcome it, and so those feelings only lasted for around 30 minutes. I told myself that although my progress in this way is below hers, we’re different people, on different paths. Plus, I have a plan, and although I’ve never been blessed financially, with hard work I will achieve this goal eventually. I guess what I’m trying to get across is that I’m able to step back now and regard the intention to move forward as more important than the past, as that’s all that I can control.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Envy (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Such a difficult feeling
scrolling through social media
she’s already achieved my goal
despite being years younger

Envy is a killer
my positivity torn asunder
mind frantically begins to search
through all of my blunders

Thirty minutes or so after
I’ve had time to reflect
considered my values
began to calmly introspect

 
Envy is a killer
my positivity torn asunder
mind frantically begins to search
through all of my blunders
But I take a breath and tell myself
we’re just on different paths
wherever mine takes me
I’ll make sure it’s built to last

 
With every single feeling
you always have a choice
to triumph or despair
give in to either voice
I chose a little of both
tried to make envy my friend
because motivation in the present
is what matters in the end

Envy is a killer
my positivity torn asunder
mind frantically begins to search
through all of my blunders
But I take a breath and tell myself
we’re just on different paths
wherever mine takes me
I’ll make sure it’s built to last

Lyrics Day Eighty Two – ‘One Person’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are about a struggle I’ve had for some time. Perhaps struggle is too serious a word, but certainly a psychological conundrum. I always wanted to help a lot of people and enact great change, and certainly during this time, when I’ve been unable to complete my regular volunteer duties, I’ve analysed my progress and found myself to be lacking. But, this didn’t just happen during this period of time, but for the last ten years, at least. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy to help somebody, but I always feel like it isn’t enough; like, there’s a higher mountain to climb in order to truly make my life count.

As a positive, it does mean that I’m always looking for new ways to support people in new ways, but it’s mostly a negative, because I never feel a lasting satisfaction from doing that, despite it being my life’s mission. I think it’s often because I imagine the top of the summit, the moment where the lives of thousands of people are saved, or improved, and everything else seems to pale in comparison to that ultimate goal.

These thoughts have been more prominent recently, and so I forced myself to consider it, whilst I was at work today. And I suddenly thought, ‘if helping one person isn’t worthwhile, then by that logic, helping a million is irrelevant, too.’

So, by the same token, I can say, because helping a million peopleĀ isĀ relevant, then one is, too.

I’ve been so caught up in my ultimate goal that I’ve actually declined invitations to volunteer events in the past, thinking ‘that won’t many help many people, so what’s the point?’ But, I wasĀ missingĀ the point. It’s true that I want to change the lives of a lot of people for the better, as many as possible, in my life. But it’s the intention behind those acts that matters, and every single person is important in that journey. Whether I go on to help one more or a million more, my intention in living, and in those actions will be the same, and that’s what counts.

Stay safe, and thoughtful ~

Sean

One Person (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Had an epiphany today
perhaps I’ve finally solved
the mystery of my mind
why I never give applause

Continuously focused
on radical achievements
never stopped to focus
on what a single one meant

Whoever I helped
it was never enough
wanted the save the world
and I only saved one

Continuously focused
on radical achievements
never stopped to focus
on what a single one meant
Save one person or many?
Their value is the same
your intention is what matters
to support without delay

 
Made the mistake of thinking
my intentions were trivial
actions a drop in the ocean
unseen and inconsequential
Actually they mean everything
and that’s because
if one person isn’t worthwhile
then nobody is

 
Continuously focused
on radical achievements
never stopped to focus
on what a single one meant
To save one or many?
Their value is the same
your intention is what matters
to support without delay

Lyrics Day Seventy Eight – ‘Path’

Hey everyone,

as you might have noticed, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently about my goals and position in life in relation to that. As part of that, I’ve realised that it’s okay to have an overarching purpose, but without clear, definable goals in order to achieve that purpose, everything will fall short.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Path (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Purpose isn’t enough
with a path to follow
without the right focus
I’m left feeling hollow

Give me a direction
a path to head toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward

I’ve continued to tread
irrespective of direction
it’s time to delve inwards,
towards introspection

 
Give me a direction
a path to move towards
a tangible target
a way to go forwards
an arrow without a target
it’s quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

To never consider outcomes
means never to hit the bullseye
arrived home feeling empty
achievements met with a sigh
what I have to imagine
are a series of stepping stones
each one represents a goal
for wasted time, I’ll atone

Give me a direction
a path to move toward
a tangible target
a way to go forward
an arrow without a target
feels quite overwhelming
need to understand the puzzle
to keep the wheel turning

Lyrics Day Seventy Four – ‘Future’

Hey everyone,

in relation to working towards my purpose, I wrote these lyrics in frustration at the difficulties that people experience in this world, and my hopes on changing it. I think I spoke about it in a previous entry, but so many people seem to endure unnecessary suffering, by which I mean, suffering that could be avoided. Of course, everybody will suffer, through the loss of loved ones, or relationship breakdowns, but there exists so much pain, and I believe the underlying causes behind this pain could be eradicated.

I was thinking about how I could change things, and for me, the best path seems to be a position in Government, though I will finish my studies to become a therapist, no matter what path I take in the future.

I guess the only thing left to say is, ‘Vote for me!’ šŸ˜‰

Stay safe ~

Sean

Future (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

There are so many people
experiencing unnecessary suffering
so many in power
promising much, seemingly bluffing

On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without

 
Let’s start with education
and teach a love of learning
and build centres for the homeless
skills and dignity, they’re earning

 
On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without
hope, love and meaning
that comes from self-belief
I’ll help every single one of them
unleash the potential beneath

 
So many problems
in this troubled world
I don’t know how
but when I’m 100 years old
I’ll look back on my life
and know I tried my best
to create a bright future
everything I imagined, nothing less

 
On every single corner
streets are littered with doubt
citizens with their heads down
spending another day without
hope, love and meaning
that comes from self-belief
I’ll help every single one of them
unleash the potential beneath

Lyrics Day Sixty Nine – ‘Notice’

Hey everyone,

last night I was speaking to one of my best friends via message, for the first time in over a week. She told me she’d been feeling bad for most of that time, and that’s why she hadn’t messaged me, but then I thought: ‘Why didn’t I message?’

Fair enough, with some friends, you have lower standards, where you’ll just speak once a month or so, but with this person, I shouldn’t have left it so long. That perhaps sounds a little bit dramatic, but it’s a standard that I always wanted to live by. I know what it feels like to be alone, and I never want anybody else to feel that way.

When you read today’s lyrics, you may think they’re a little negative and overly-critical, but these words, and all of the others that I’ve written so far, are helping to consider different topics and feelings more deeply, and because of that, I’m able to know myself better. In fact, I’ve started a project where I’m analysing the different aspects of my life that I’d like to improve, in separate documents. So for example, I’ve been working on understanding my identity further for some time, writing a document gathering my thoughts, but I’ve also created a folder (on my computer) collecting style ideas, as that’s another thing I’d like to improve on when this lock down is over. It may sound a little too rigid to deal with emotional and philosophical issues, but it helps me to organise my thoughts – to write down the things I’d like to improve, and see them there in front of me, in black and white. I want to treat it as a checklist.

As another example, I’ve decided to create a folder concerning my physical health and fitness. In that folder initially will be a document writing down what things I feel are wrong with me (running style, calf muscles etc), and that I could improve on, and then I’ll do some research and create some documents which will help me to find the answers. I’ve gone a little off track, but I just wanted to explain where thinking deeper about the feelings I have has led me – thanks for continuing to read this!

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Notice (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

My friend yesterday she told me
she’d been in a bad mood all week
I’m sorry that I never asked
during that time, we didn’t even speak

 
There are so many souls
out adrift in the sea
searching for an anchor
someone to hear their plea

It’s easy to say we’re busy
to turn away and feign ignorance
but I didn’t want to be that person
I wanted to make a difference

There are so many souls
out adrift in the sea
searching for an anchor
someone to hear their plea
as they drift in the cold abyss
have somebody to float with
but right now that’s not me
I didn’t even notice

Say I shouldn’t blame myself
but that’s just an excuse
it’s easy to send a message
instead of being a recluse
I need to do better
in every single aspect
work harder every second
and earn some self-respect

 
There are so many souls
out adrift in the sea
searching for an anchor
someone to hear their plea
as they drift in the cold abyss
have somebody to float with
but right now that’s not me
I didn’t even notice

Lyrics Day Sixty Five – ‘Training’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are focused on a topic which I’ve been thinking about recently – namely, the decisions we make every day, and what a big impact these can have on our mindset, and life overall. Whilst I feel like I’m a productive person, sometimes with small decisions, I delay them, thinking that they’re not so important. For example, I’ll stick to the same number of press-ups, or I’ll continue watching a drama, rather than reading another chapter in a self-help book.

The two examples there would benefit me, there’s no doubt, but it’s also the impact that those decisions on how to spend your time affect your mindset positively, that I wanted to convey. I’m not sure if I’ve done that so well in these lyrics, but I think the mere act of making a decision to do something beneficial, is in itself massively important, because it conveys a sense of purpose, a sense of determination which can then cause you to act that way in other areas of your life. I’ve never actually read any specific literature on what I’ve said there, but I’ve felt it in my every day life, and so with that knowledge, I plan to treat each day as a new lesson, and pay more attention to the details.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Training (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Whether it’s going out to exercise
or starting a new book
your intention is the key
in providing a new outlook

No matter how dark it gets
declare yourself absolved
take some time to focus
and strengthen your resolve

When seeking improvement
small decisions are intrinsic
to shaping your future
and overall mindset

 
No matter how dark it gets
declare yourself absolved
take some time to focus
and strengthen your resolve
Concentrate on life
the knowledge that you’re gaining
realise that each day
is another form of training

 
Breaking free of this cycle
demanded introspection
looking deeply at myself
finding a connection
found hope in my purpose
understanding motivation
that every single day
I can delay gratification

No matter how dark it gets
declare yourself absolved
take some time to focus
and strengthen your resolve
Concentrate on life
the knowledge that you’re gaining
realise that each day
is another form of training

Lyrics Day Fifty Eight – ‘Future’

Hey everyone,

If I’m being honest, I’ve felt a bit down, over this weekend. Relating to the lyrics I posted yesterday, I’ve just been doing a lot of thinking about who I want to become. As I said before, I feel like I’ve wasted a lot of time over these past few years, and I heard a song on Saturday which was bursting with enthusiasm, and heart, and drive.

It’s an inspiring song, but again had me reflecting on my own life. I know that the solution to being a better person doesn’t happen through wallowing in self-pity, and I intend to push forward, in small steps, through the decisions I make every day.

Stay safe ~

Sean

Future (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Heard a song just yesterday
suddenly thought about adventure
about a life I didn’t lead
a place I hadn’t ventured

 
What was it I dreamed of
since I was a child?
Inspiring those around me
imagination running wild

 
The passionate words
burst through my soul
but now I’m feeling empty
a large, gaping hole

What was it I dreamed of
since I was a child?
Inspiring those around me
imagination running wild
As an adult it’s clear
I haven’t met my expectations
but my future isn’t set
it’s up to me, the destination

 
Made a vow to myself
promised that I’d face my fears
make up for all the lost time
I’d wasted over these years
And when I was on the right path
I’d stop for just a while
looking up at the sky
acknowledging, with a smile

 

What was it I dreamed of
since I was a child?
Inspiring those around me
imagination running wild
As an adult it’s clear
I haven’t met my expectations
but my future isn’t set
it’s up to me, the destination

Lyrics Day Fifty Seven – ‘Comfortable’

Hey everyone,

today’s lyrics are focused on some reflections I’ve had recently, how I’ve been far too comfortable over these past few years. I think when reading this back, I have been a little harsh on myself – I have made some progress during that time, but I suffer with social Anxiety, and because of that, my life has been very safe, rather than challenging, and progressive.

Again, it’s not like I’ve made no progress with it, but when it comes to the crucial points (taking risks, entering new situations), I often refuse. Part of this is due to my introverted nature, but from my studies and research, I know how to solve this problem, or at the very least improve it, and I have to accept that I haven’t taken those steps. I believe that in order to truly grow, we must challenge ourselves, and these words reflect on that.

Stay safe ~

Sean

 

Comfortable (Verse, Half Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus)

Been way too comfortable
these past few years
living under the guise of progress
barely facing my fears

Living in this way
I have no excuse
never challenging myself
becoming a recluse

It was far too easy
to stay sitting down
but I only have one life
if there’s a chance, it’s now

Living in this way
I have no excuse
never challenging myself
becoming a recluse
Wanted to apologise
to myself at twenty five
you had such high hopes
I’ll try to keep them alive

It seems like my strategy
in coping with strife
was to stay by myself
opting out of life
I have sympathy for myself
Sure, Anxiety is hard
but I’ll strive to be better
hold myself in high regard

Living in this way
I have no excuse
never challenging myself
becoming a recluse
Wanted to apologise
to myself at twenty five
you had such high hopes
I’ll try to keep them alive